This is a sister poem to "If only you knew" as suggested by u/Glen_oak.

I want you to know,

This was never supposed to be,

I want you to know this wasn't meant for you,

Was it even for me?

How can you ever know,

If I don't even myself,

To me our love was dusty,

Sat there on the shelf.

All the long nights,

We slowly came apart.

Still I can't excuse,

This deed that I have done.

I never meant to hurt you,

Or to break your heart.

But as I stood there,

With a stranger in the night,

He made me feel seen,

He made me feel alive.

A niggling in my head,

This is definitely wrong,

Still I pursue this,

We go back to his home.

The niggling returns,

I choose to ignore,

I want this,

But I think I want you more.

Now I'm leaving,

A stone in my heart.

How could I do this?

To the one I truly love.

You're finished work,

You come to meet me,

A big smile on on your face.

What have I done?

I feel like such disgrace.

I break down in your arms.

How can I tell you?

I want you to know.

I still love you,

Do you still love me so?

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