I wrote and sent this to my ex, as my attempt to get closure. I'd like to share it with you

Apologies if it isn't very good, I've never wrote a poem before and so don't exactly know how to do it. I wrote how I felt, and like how I feel it is disjointed and broken ......................

The depths of my dispair

A stormy sea surrounds me, I gasp for air but my lungs fill with tar, Black and heavy it burdens my breathing, I look around begging for help but I am alone.

The light that once was, radiant and warm has left me, Never to grace me with its beauty and love again, The horns on my head denote me, A devil, born be be unloved and hated by all, The sun used to warm me, The sun used to love me, But now that glowing orb of hope is gone as all things go and turn to ash around me.

Heavy is my head, Weighed down with all the indecisions and decisions of my existance, What should have been done, what could have been said, All is a fanasy, doomed to roam the depths of my broken mind,

She she is there now, I see her, She comes to me in my waking dreams to haunt me, She tells me sweet things, beautiful things, But they are for naught for she is gone, Now all that remains is a phantom wearing her flesh and speaking with her voice, This ghost of her taunts me, It reminds me of what was, What was lost and what can never be remade after breaking.

The light at the deepest point in my heart has withered and died, Like a raging furnace that once was, Now doused and left to ruin, She is there now, I see her The figure of her dances around my mind, Swirling with words like honey, But it is a lie, for she is gone and with her my dreams, Dreams of a future, dreams of an ending, Dreams of white dress and new life.

She is there now, her eyes cast on me, but they are hollow, Her gaze distant betraying that she is gone, She lays not next to me, for I am alone in this swirling torrent of blackness, Drowing in the tar that drags me down further unable to breathe, Her hand reached out to save me, but a blink and it is gone, My mind betrays me, this phantom of the one I love can not save me, For a phantom is not her, She is gone from my gaze forevermore.

And yet I see her, In my dreams, in the corner of my eye and in the back of my broken rotting mind, I see her, I shall always see her, And I shall always love her, For she is you

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