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(precursor: im a little insecure about my writing since my ability to write well has gone down from drug abuse :,) this is the first poem i've written in about a year, it's based off the true story of my now-deceased father telling me he was assaulted by a priest, but it's also kind of a genuine letter to him. im seventeen and have only been published once before so help is really appreciated).
TW: child sexual abuse, suicide
âââ
To Mr. White,
you werenât there on my ninth birthday,
but heâd already tainted me by then.
as pink cotton bled brown,
i knew god wouldnât save me
& on my thirteenth birthday,
beneath the hymn of fluorescent lights & static yellow, cigarette-stained walls
you had a secret to take to the grave,
so you took it to me.
confessions of being a preacherâs lamb,
sacrificial & puppeteered
at only six years old,
âlike father, like daughterâ you bellowed,
though your crows feet dampened.
i never ate my cake that night
& two years later,
you committed suicide.
i envisioned the priest at your wake,
screaming the holy spirit into my aunts or
my pastor, whispering of secrecy
& false promises.
i knew god wouldnât save me,
but i prayed he didnât save youâ
let him save the priests,
but not their bible-beating sons
& the wives,
but not their rosary-bearing daughters
for we deserved somewhere else;
somewhere safer than heaven
Love,
A
ââ
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