I am lying here beaten black and blue

Underneath the bridge you cross by

everyday

A strong string of tie loose

Spiralled across my scattered pieces

held together by this rope

Still Separated

parts of me frayed floating in the air

Pin and prick of my heart

Heavy dunes

Ink bleeds as I sing

Lying here,

Beneath everything I once believed in

I want to be heard

To be seen

I want you to be here with me,

Feel my grief.

I have been here for long

And you're sick of my sadness

My Disease,

You wish me dead

I bet not more than me.

But I can hardly move

I know I couldn't or I didn't'? tried?

Have l lost my faith

Drunk on my own pain

Combust my bones

Doused my fire

But I didn't?

I didn't, didn't, want to.

Lie Here, beneath my tomb

While I am still aware

Green grass spread wide,

Dew settling on my lashes

As I open my eyes

Raising my head from the mud

Sitting still, in the cemetery,

Half of me still buried,

By back against the tombstone

My fingers on the engravings

And I am trying to remember who I was Before,

You left me in the grave

While I was still breathing,

And I am still grieving

Phantoms of my loved ones lost that I talk

to, the ones you don't see

I grew up aloof but never felt so lonely

When I look back it's hazy

When I look ahead it's claustrophobic

Yet I can see more

Than before

But I am here

As I open my eyes I am here

Still here,  But still,  So still

Lying  beneath the bridge

All tied up yet longing adrift

And I don't know how to put myself

Back together

It's pretty rough and wrote this before sleeping in quite haste without meaning it to be anything much but I want to edit it explore what could be be done is there scope for this Some context regarding what I wanted to express :-

( It's about depression sort of "waking at last" came as a title it's about getting out of depression just enough to realise you were depressed for really long but still feeling stuck not fully out there, not really being able to move and not knowing how to carry on to life again)

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