I hate the sound

Of my own speech

Broken is what I think

Everything I have to say

Digging these holes

I know I need to fix

My mouth

It's rot is spreading

To my love

To my life

How do I silence

The pain

My voice intensifies

Verbal bullets

Leaving invisible holes

Bleeding pure

Why do I have

To say what I think

When my mind is

Different

Autistic bpd cptsd

All names I have had

This world is hard

But I am not

I hate my voice

I cannot forget

Though they are gone

Never do they leave

In my mind they reside

In my anger they rise

I hate my brains

Repating the same

Endless anthem

A Mile away

Dissociation my lips

Still sway

I hate my life

But I love the world

The people

These wonderful

Scenes endlessly unfolding

Beyond beholding

So why

Is it midnight

When I cry

Alone

Like clock work

My chest hurts

I hate my voice

While I hear it speak

Dissociate I feel

Like breathing meat

A scared little kid

With his fathers voice

A man with pain

Begging me to

Stop the rain

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