Hello I want to talk but I can’t figure out where to begin Typing this is painful Everything feels like AHHHHHH I don’t know where to start I also just learned the concept of solipsism and am genuinely relieved to know that there’s a concrete definition behind my feelings. Although, now that I know I’m not imagining it like what the fuck I thought I was just imagining it until very recently but this thing literally has polluted every aspect of@my whole life . It feels like no one understand what the fuck goes on in my head and how hard it is to stop plus everything i do is wrong somehow anyway and I also feel guilty for saying that because idk I just got tangled so I threw that thought away.

I also just smoked a bunch of weed so I’m stoned and sitting in silence on my phone with my thoughts. They keep me so encapsulated.

I feel like I shouldn’t be saying any of this. Is this a socially acceptable thing to do? Maybe I just don’t have social skills or enough self awareness? Or maybe I’m just looking for an excuse for being a piece of shit

Random question: does anyone else find special comfort in apps like elevate and/or word games ? Idk if that’s related or not but it does well to keep my mind worried about one thing