So, my OCD has been kinda off and on the past few years, at times minor and not really anything I cared about, to at times much more distressing, with more frequent compulsions. However, never before has it been like this. Over the past couple months, it has built up to where it's now worse than it has ever been before, especially now the past few days. Now I'm at the point of doing constant compulsions, mostly mental ones, and it is really, really stressing me out. I cannot take these compulsions at all any longer, but I am completely powerless to them. I keep thinking that this is ridiculous, it's absurd that I need to do these things to stave off horrible things, but in the end that little thought of "what if? Is not doing it just one more time worth it?" completely overtakes that rational part. I have no idea what to do now, I know about ERP, and I'm going to a residential treatment place in about 6 months months, but I need to do something now. I cannot keep up with these compulsions. They cannot keep going. They are simply untenable. I do have a prescription of ativan that I am mostly terrified to take because of all the stuff about addiction and such, but I think it might be time to take a couple, at least just tonight. Do they stop compulsions though? It would stand to reason that since they stop anxiety, they would also eliminate the need for compulsions, but I'm not sure. Outside of that, has there been anything that helped you when your compulsions were at their worst? Any in-the-moment tricks? Unfortunately, since these are currently mostly mental, it's really hard to avoid them now.