Please, if you are reading this tell me if I’m alone in this feeling or not and help me put words to it.

I feel everything and nothing all at once, and there’s a thousand thoughts to think and I can’t think them all and it hurts. There’s too many opinions and I’ll never be right, because there’s no such thing as “being right” and that frustrates me because I have a strong urge to pack all my thoughts into neat little boxes and sort them. My brain gets hooked on loops, and it feels like I’m thinking all these thousands of thoughts, but at the same time I’m not thinking any of them at all. It’s so loud, but there’s no sound at all. There’s just nothing, but it hurts. It’s not sad, or mad, or anxious, just pure raw pain - not the kind you feel in your body, but that just is.

Trying to describe it makes it worse, and it’s frustrating because I feel so alone in this overwhelming pool and I get scared that no one will ever get this feeling because there aren’t words for it. Please, help me and let me know if you feel any part of this too.