Basically we had a messy break up my ex left me because I had OCD and it stressed her too much and she didn't want to help in anyway in the hard times. She was crazy in love with me when I was a confident asshole in my late 20s who didn't want to be tied down, but when I became involved more in the relationship and helping her out because I loved her and wanted to get married we started fighting a lot. Then all of a sudden I had a OCD break (unrelated) since I was undiagnosed OCD sufferer and had a nervous breakdown for 4 months moved in with my parents after leaving our apartment and got therapy and started taking SSRIs, she was completely unsupportive and was distancing herself from me. Even told me that I was basicly a wierdo for getting a panic attack once, 0 compassion. I went from being a very confident Alpha Type to weak and questioning my sanity and trying to keep the mask in place for her. Anyways she dumped me as I was getting much better from medication and therapy since she was tired of waiting for me to get better and thought she would be "stuck" with the responsibility of my OCD. Anyways we Had a 5 Year Relationship and her mom which was a social climber which initially loved me because I come from a upperclass family told her I had no hope in giving her a good life and told her to end it since I was causing her "unhappiness". It was brutal anyways it fucked my OCD super bad sent me back 6 months of all my hardwork. I was stuck in quarantine in Covid inside my house going crazy it was a hard time. I worked super hard in these 2 months thanks to My Amazing Parents they saved my fcking Life they are the most amazing people ever! I did total no Contact with her and some days are hard as I miss her and blame my own OCD which is wrong since I couldn't control most shit even though she doesn't deserve that and I just want to move on and find a girl who is a good person who I can truly love and live my life with people are good people that make me happy. Now I just want my Engagement ring back I gave her and let her go completely. I am decent looking smart guy and many girls message me, but my self esteem is so messed up because of the way this girl treated me during this hard time.