Hi. I'm just wondering if anyone experiences this the same way as I do. So instead of just having the intrusive thoight of "you could just hurry yourself right now" I have it where like its a very vivid video like image in my head of me doing it. I don't really know how to explain it.

They're so incredibly vivid and kind of terrifying. They're especially bad when I'm trying to sleep at night because as soon as I close my eyes I see a detailed image of me hurting myself/killing myself.

When ive seen people talk about harm ocd they more explain it as they have the thoight of I coukd do this right now but no one has ever described it in a way that I really see as relating to me.

Is this ocd or am I just like suicidal and I don't know it? I don't think I want to die but these images in my head are just so detailed its as if I've thoight them through even though they're completely involuntary thoughts. They keep me awake at night and make me scared if myself.