There's no question, I have OCD and if I really think and look back on my life, I had it, pretty much, as long as I can remember. Always over thinking, being in fear or something, always trying to figure it out, etc...

I've done therapy before in the past but not OCD specific. I've been on medication as well a few times, got in control and went off of them multiple times too. Lately, things are getting super annoying for me and, really, I DO NOT want to go to therapy. But should I? I'm almost afraid to know what they'll figure out about me or afraid I won't like what they want me to do to get better. I guess I mean I kind of have to "face my fears" in a way. I can make up so many excuses not to go and I feel like I am just going to go and be the biggest, resistive pain in the butt ever.