I feel like I need to do something about it, because not doing so feels irresponsible. Although I can predict it's going to look like just mentally looping in lists and analyses and also writing down and closing the book and re-opening it over and over, which is why I choose to disengage. I just feel so scared by the possibility of me going to hell.

I have accepted it and I know that this possibility is going to remain regardless of what I do. I just feel I should be doing what I can to minimize this responsibly. It is tied to religion so it may be specific though. I'm afraid of being a disbeliever and ending up in eternal hell, and for that reason I feel like I must always be working on building my faith.

For context, I grew up with these beliefs and values deeply ingrained in me although I am questioning my faith because it was something I just did due to society and not due to actual logical conviction. I work on building my faith up consistently with theological discussions regualarly. Everyday, if I can. This is a priority to me, and would remain so even without OCD existing. I just wouldn't be afraid for the rest of the day if I didn't have OCD.

Has anyone had experience with something similiar?