I don’t know if this is ocd or autism or both but I have this internal need to understand every single issue and problem that people face or I feel like I’m a bad person because if I can’t understand then I’m automatically one of those people who are ignorant and stupid and don’t know things that annoy people with those issues. Iknow it’s stupid and makes me a worse person for trying to understand everything but it’s so hard to not automatically feel strongly about stuff that I see as wrong and to feel strongly about the ways people have been wronged even though it doesn’t actually affect me, people misinterpret it as me trying to help them but I’m not I’m just constantly trying to be not disliked by any of the communities and identities that I feel should be allowed to exist, it’s selfish and stupid and I just hurt more people and myself but it feels so awful to not understand things…