I’ve come to the realization that I think I have racism ocd, I tend to observe the people around me in general but by doing this I often feel like maybe im secretly hateful of something bc I took note of it or bc I usually only want to interact with people who look similar to me I mean I wouldn’t say go away if someone who didn’t talked to me but if I look at a crowd and pick a person to internet with odds are they’ll look similar to me because it feels familiar but I worry it’s bc I’m racist and it’s just confusing and frustrating and I’ve had similar struggles with other types of people I mean i hated being around old looking people bc I was convinced they could suddenly die around me.

It’s comforting that it’s probably just my ocd though..