Mkay so this a on going problem I've got. And yes I know watching porn is not ideal but I still need some help.

So when I get horny I guess.. I have a image of a friend. And in my mind it's making me feel like that friend is giving me motivation to go watch porn. If that makes any sense? And then I have intrusive thoughts abt them in general.

This makes me feel like a perverted monster, unworthy of their friendship. I'm just so sick of it and it makes me feel like it's my fault (And I PRAY it isn't).

So any feedback is appreciated. Or if anyone else is going thru a similar problem I am id really appreciate it if you'd make yourself known!