Hello, please don't read if you think it will trigger you somehow.

I am feeling very alone, sad, and scared to be honest. My doctor diagnosed me as bipolar 2, but I really think I have pure o ocd. OCD runs in my family, and I think my psychiatrist based the bipolar diagnosis on the fact that my meds at the time made it where I only really felt bad for the week or so following my period.

Now that I'm on new meds, I get to be obsessive all month long. Yay!

My thoughts are very strange: I question everything, such as why "x thing" makes me feel "y emotion", and then it feels like a switch is flipped since I can't find an answer and I feel emotionless, sad, apathetic, or guilty. A lot of it centers around having conversations with others. I can't focus and I feel disconnected and it's making me feel like I don't care about people.

I just want to be diagnosed accurately but I've never heard of a condition like mine. Hugs, prayers, advice greatly appreciated.