Contrary to OCD stereotypes, I’m not a super tidy or organized person. I live alone right now and when my house gets really messy (pilled up dishes, dirty clothes, trash on counters and floors) it can be a little overwhelming for me sometimes but it becomes unbearable when someone else is in my house. Even someone I’m totally comfortable with like my partner or best friend I feel like I can’t breathe or I start becoming so anxious. Say I have clothes, books or trash on my couch and someone moves it to try and sit down my body starts clamming up and I start compulsively apologizing. Also when people offer or try to help me clean my house I start having an anxiety attack and have to just do it myself. It must have to do with my need for controlling my environment and obsessing over what the other person must think of me but I was wondering if anyone else feels that too? Or things that helped you grow from/get over it?