So I(31), amab, have had on going questions about my gender identity for over two years at this point. Basically I go through waves of feeling more masculine and more feminine. For the past month it’s been pretty steady feminine energy. Which I would like to explore by wearing certain clothes, trying makeup, painting nails, etc.

My problem is 3.5 years ago I was paralyzed and I’m a quadriplegic. Meaning I’m not functionally independent. Because of a lack of finger dexterity I literally can’t do anything I just listed without someone else’s assistance. Also because of my injury I moved back in with my parents. They along with some hired morning help are my primary caregivers.

So my issue becomes I’m questioning my gender identity and because I can’t freely explore my gender expression in the privacy of my own home by myself, it’s making things more difficult. Has anyone else questioned their gender and had an SCI? Or does anyone have any thoughts on my situation that could help? Any thoughts would be appreciated, thanks.