I'm 33 and afab. I've always felt kinda indifferent about being a woman. I like using my vagina, I like my breasts, I like wearing dresses and jewelry and makeup, but I also like wearing suits and looking androgynous/masculine sometimes. It's not like I enthusiastically like being a woman, it's more like I'm ok with it and it's just a fact about my body, not an identity that I embrace. The thing that makes me want to pursue hormones is that I want a big clit. Like a really big clit, big enough to have a noticable erection, big enough to penetrate my partners, big enough to suck. I feel weird like maybe this is just a fetish and not something I should actually pursue. I don't want any other musculinizing side effects, I love my feminine hourglass figure and I'm already insecure about my big arms and shoulders. Idk what to do. I haven't really told this to anyone because I'm afraid I will be dismissed.