My biology is male, but I inside feel my gender is female.

The 1st problem is :

-I don't like makeup ( very dislike the feeling of makeup on my skin and the time it takes to do )

-I don't wear dress and i don't want to

-I don't want to do a transition ( I feel my body and my mind wont be ok to go threw the whole surgeries ). The transition is a pure physical trauma to me and i know it would be too hard for me.

-I just don't look like a female.

I overaly does not look masculine at all. I have my nails done, my eyebrows, i wanna do my eyelashes. I have some feminine earings, I wear lots of female t-shirt, leggings, female coats etc. But I don't look like a female and i want to be treated as she/her. I prefer people to call me she/her. I don't feel like a man neither want to be. I really dislike having a penise and its painful to me. I don't know how to feel good when i am a she that does not look like a she...

PLS i need some opinions or sharings