hi everyone, im not one to post all that often but i would like to know if anyone has felt the same as me at all. i have known since i was at least 12 that i wasnt exactly my birth gender, but i never really figured out what i am? i just consider myself me yknow? im my gender, i am just me. but ive also been thinking of and wanting top surgery and testosterone for years too. i actually was on low dose testosterone for about six months two years ago, i only stopped taking it because i thought i was happy with where i was in my transition (even though i originally wanted to be on t for two years) i have been growing my hair out these past two years as well and people mainly see me as a girl again, which is whatever, i know people wont likely see me as my gender ever unless its people close to me. i like having long hair but every once and a while i think being on t would make me feel better about growing out my hair. not only that but there are things like my voice and other things from t i want more of. in theory, going on t sounds like the best thought right? but i get scared when i think about other people. im scared other people will no longer like me as much, i learned over the past two years that people seem to like me more when i present more femme. it seems to be the only way to get any kind of romantic attention, and im so scared ill lose even more chances because of transitioning. i know i would still present femme and all that because i like the aesthetic but its those more masc things im worried people wont like me for. im scared people will find me gross or something, im scared it will end up with me regretting it :/ is there any way to get over this? or is t not going to be for me? im really unsure