It feels like a silly question because I'm sure someone would just say "gender is a personal experience and no one can tell you for sure" Wich I do agree with. But I've just been going back and forth with the idea and I don't know what to do with these feelings.

I think back to childhood and I for sure never felt like a boy, or a girl. Grown ups would push me one way or the other (I grew up in a conservative family) saying things like "you don't want to bake cookies, that's a girl thing" I love baking. Or "you shouldn't cry, that's not what men do." I have a lot of feelings.

But where I get confused is that I don't know if this is just me being aware of gender norms being silly at a young age, or if it means I'm something different. I believe that gender is a spectrum, and that everyone falls somewhere on it not necessarily fitting any description perfectly. But I still find myself questioning.

Another element of this is that I worry that this is ego. It's popular these days to have in groups and to have social layers that make people feel more interesting (TikTok self diagnosis, etc) and while I'm not at all saying that's what non-binary people are in general, some voice tells me that this is just me wanting to have a cool title to put next to my name or a fun pin to wear at pride.

I'm not looking for anyone to tell me what I am, I guess I'm just looking for someone to talk to with experience with this thing.

Feel free to reply, or DM me whatever your comfortable with. Thank you so much for reading 💜