I started off as naturally producing testosterone from me being AMAB. I didn't like how my testosterone worked in correlation with my body so I took estrogen and testosterone blockers for 3 years, but then when I stopped last August it seems somehow my naturally producted testosterone has now altered how it affects me physically. I like to believe it's like when you shave your head bald your hair may grow back differently. I also like to feel like I gave my testosterone a break and when it came back there was some sort of comfort as if my estrogen HRT like renovated the house to something better, updated and organized. So my testosterone came back to fully renovated and furnished house and felt less stressed and could be more calm and not totally rip apart everything estrogen did in correlation with me but could give the remodeled space some character that resenates with testosterone who was there previously and now after.

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