its fucking hard out here man

i did so much today and im so tired but it wasnt even that much. i just took all damn day because my mind kept wandering off and id stare at the wall or something would pop in my mind and id google shit. either that or i literally just cant read and my brain wont work, id have to re-read things so many times for it to make sense.

and now after all that work i still need to workout because its been a while and i cant let myself keep making excuses to avoid it

however instead of working out im in here pacing around my gym imagining scenarios in my head and talking to myself

how the fuck do i make myself do things man, i need tips

and dont say take my phone away because my monkey brain will just come crawling back to get it 5 minutes later