i hate my body. i hate how it doesn't match any beauty standard. i hate my broad shoulders. how my chest is small. how my face looks like a guys. i literally look like a man. i feel like I'm in drag whenever i dress prettily. other girls call me pretty- sometimes even women i don't know- but i feel so ugly and unlovable and disgusting.

i hate how i don't get any male attention. i can't relate to the "typical woman experience". i'm genuinely not trying to sound like a pick me, but i just.. I've never had to ward guys away. I've never even been catcalled. i automatically feel like guy repellent unless if I'm their friend.

i know I'm more than my body, but i just feel like if I'm not pretty...if I'm not feminine...whats the fucking point of me? yeah, i have a personality, but I'm awkward and i take jokes too literally and i come off as naïve. yeah, i have hobbies, but I'm too burnt out to them most times. i just feel pointless.