In high-school they made me do all kinds of testing because I was struggling to keep up taking notes and didn't do much homework. I have a sister who was in special Ed so it was suspected I needed help. Turned out I had an IQ of 156 and adhd with an auditory processing disorder. The woman who administered the testing said I scored very well in everything else but had a "smart 5th graders math skills". I didn't really think anything of it at the time but people around me made a big deal about how I needed to apply that brain more and be someone.

My aunts and uncles still think someday I'll suddenly realize I should be a doctor or a lawyer. But I don't feel smart. The test was right that I'm dogshit at math but its not just that. I make mistakes all the time. I'm currently struggling through a simplified version of A Brief History of Time and Space and I definitely don't feel like a genius. I work in a warehouse sorting packages.

I know iq changes with age and I know having a high or low one doesn't mean you actually know more or less. I feel like all it has done for me is make me more aware of how little I know. And as far as people and how to maintain social relationship...I may as well be an alien.