I’m not one to really get emotional over this stuff. But the older I get the more I realize Christmas isn’t the same anymore. I’m not talking about the childhood stuff like Santa but I mean more so of the memories of those Christmas’. The past two Christmas’ I haven’t been home due to visiting my fiancé in South Korea. We can’t be together due to visa reasons and us trying to bring him back to the U.S. on a marriage visa. So with my time off from work I go to see him which I never regret and I love being with him. But my heart breaks to not be with my family. I was raised with the Italian Christmas traditions and it’s something I miss so deeply. I miss my grandpa being here with us like he made Christmas his own holiday. I miss him so very much. I was just listening to “white Christmas” by Bing Crosby and I started to cry. That’s not like me but it just hit a nerve that reminded me of my grandpa, simpler times, and being with my family.

Does anyone here know how I feel? The sadness of being away from your family? The feeling of yearning for the Christmas’ of the past?