I mean fake in the sense that nothing is what it seems to be and it's like my whole life, it's like everything I do when I'm awake is just to waste time until I sleep and do it all over again.

And today at work I had someone call me a friend but idk if I even know what that means anymore. It's hard to explain but I feel like people are just people if that makes sense.

Like I understand what friends and family are but to me they are just people that have happened to have a connection with me.

I'm just so disassociated from reality to where I feel I'm stuck in some sort of Tsukuyomi (Naruto fans relate)

It's like I'm not me like Im in complete control of who I am but feel like a 3rd person pov all the time.

I'm sorry for ranting especially about nonsense but their are no words to describe how I feel but I have to say something to someone or I'm gonna go crazy.

Thankyou reddit and Reddit users for making a place I feel I can speak my truth through.