The problem I have is that I have very little experience dealing with men or women, platonically or romantically (I'm a schizoid). I feel like maybe that sort of clouds my perception. Like maybe I think I feel a certain way, but that would change if I actually started talking and having sex with people.

The only thing I have to go off of are the feelings I observe from a distance. And while I don't feel attracted to the same sex most of the time, it's happened enough times to make me question it. But they're usually not very gender-conforming, sometimes I have to do a double take just to see. And I find my feelings usually aren't as strong as they are for the opposite sex.

For awhile I thought I didn't have a genital preference. I don't really feel attraction to genitalia. I thought I'd have happily dated someone regardless of their genitalia, as long as they were still passing as the opposite sex. But now I feel unsure about that too. Again, it's the distance that's the problem. I have no practical experience to compare it to.

And I also have OCD which doesn't help with trusting my own judgment.