And also, is there any way I can experiment on party drugs safely solo?

I unfortunately don’t have any friends but if there are suggestions, I’m open to hearing them.

I’m super aware that I have to be more discreet and it’s frowned upon for someone my age who wants to party. Any mistake will not be taken lightly by my bosses and much older coworkers. Depressingly, I won’t have the free time I would’ve had when I was younger. So I gotta make every night out count without going overboard.

I’m only sticking to raves because clubs are more age discriminatory. I resent being separated because of my age. I’ve heard raves are much more welcoming, so I rather take that.

Staying safe is a big priority. Raving is likely to become the only place I can be my true self.

Cause honestly, I don’t give one flying fuck about people.

All I care about is having fun. And time is finite. Soon I’ll be 40 and my options become even less.

So I’m asking all the recs I can get.