I just turned 22 a few days ago. I’ve decided not to go back to college, and I plan on spending the next 13 months working. I want to save enough money so that I can move from the US to Spain so I can experience a new culture and a new life and travel all across the country, as well as the rest of Europe.

I want to do and experience as much as I can while my body is still in peak athleticism. I’m a photographer and videographer for fun, and I want to document my adventures.

But like many people, I want to one day settle down and raise a family. And that’s where my dilemma comes from. I’m a kid who hasn’t developed a whole lot of applicable job skills for a career. This makes me wonder if I should focus more on trying to build great wealth so that I won’t have to struggle with money once I have a family.

My biggest fear is growing old and looking back and realizing that I’ve wasted my youth grinding away. But at the same time I don’t know if I’m just trying to live in a fairy tail world that doesn’t actually exist.

I’d like some perspective on this. Anything helps. I’m disheartened and honestly scared because I don’t know what to do.