I've been interviewing with a company for an actual career job I desperately need, its everything I've wanted to do for a living and it pays well.

I had an interview last Thursday, and a second one today, then they wanted to schedule the third and final interview in the next few days because they want to fill the position ASAP, so I set it for this Thursday, and heres where I'm kinda freaking out.

I figured the second and third interview and drug test would be spread further apart, so I got a little high this past weekend. I'm not a habitual user but it helps my anxiety.

Then I found out today the drug test happens AT the third interview, and thinking I would fail the test, I rescheduled the third interview for Thursday next week.

So my anxiety is through the roof because I might still fail the test, and now I'm thinking because they want to fill the spot ASAP they're going to just hire somebody else before I even do the interview next week.

I don't know if I made the right move but I'm sure I fucked everything up like always. I really needed this job.