I’m at my first year of uni after doing 2 years of Community College. I’m majoring in Computer Science and ever since I was in elementary school has stressed me out a ton.

I used to have mental breakdowns in 3rd grade because I was scared of not passing my classes. This has continued into college and has only gotten worse. I’m not the smartest person and tend to learn slower than my friends and this results in me getting so stressed and anxious about failing. My entire life I’ve been told and told myself I’d go to college to get my degree so if I fail I don’t know what else to do.

My first semester of Community College was the worst my mental health had ever gotten and I wanted to kil myself so I talked to my parent about it and went to therapy. I have since stopped going because things got better but now I’m facing classes that seem nearly impossible for me again and it’s causing me to feel the same way I did my first semester of Community College.

I hate school so much and it kills me mentally but I don’t know any other thing to do besides enlist in the military. Can someone just give me some sort of advice thank you