I relapsed and binged for a good 2 hours, and boy did I feel guilty.

This all began because today I felt sick after fasting yesterday and ended up skipping school today. It really stunk because I was stuck in my house until my dad got back and sadly ended up going back to P around 11 this morning. I can't even explain how guilty I felt afterwards, it even got me crying! I just remember asking Jesus for mercy and to forgive me for mistreating and commiting adultery in my heart. I just kept praying and praying and I was so discouraged cause I did so well.

This has been my longest streak yet, of a full month and 3 days without it. Which when I think back on is a huge accomplishment. I don't remember making it over a month without P. What happens today just reminds me of what my former high school counselor would talk about. That Satan tempts us saying things like "Nah just try it, one time won't hurt you". But then when you give in he says "Wow, how could you call yourself a child of God?". I just admit that I felt awful today. Thank Jesus for His endless love and grace and I just am so thankful that when we drown in sin He just pulls us right out of it. He's a good good father.

Please pray for me brothers, as I set a new milestone in sight to aim for more than a month now. God bless you brothers, stay strong.