I’ve just recently got into a relationship with an amazing beautiful woman we just get along so great and we have so many goals for the future I don’t want to ruin my relationship over pixels on a screen the story of my addiction and I’m trying to rebuild my relationship with God

it started when I was young I just looked at soft core stuff and magazines back then and then it progressed into a complete addiction I’ve spent hundreds on content creators and even seen hookers in the past when I was single I’m deeply ashamed of myself today was the final straw I sent my last dollar to a content creator and after that I felt so disgusted with myself and said this stops now for good I looked in the mirror and said thought to myself what the fuck are you? you’re not a good man now you know this is wrong and a terrible sin I nearly broke down in tears I said it ends here it ends now I love her and I hate this addiction I have no desire to even look at that stuff anymore or spend any more money I will be checking in daily and posting to share my progress I hate myself right now it’s time for a change

after it all I went on my knees and said a prayer and repented I begged God and Jesus over and over again to help me walk with him and to be a good man a good partner and to be strong too if I’m being completely honest I feel better about myself after praying I said it with all my heart and I truly want to be a good person and a follower of Christ I will never go back to my old ways by the grace of God I will be a new man and grow through building a relationship with my partner and God

this is day 1 a fresh start.