I still look at porn, cannot help it. Can edge for months but eventual release PMO because logistics, I don't want to fuck a girl just because I'm horny, although my dick says otherwise. I do nofap for confidence building and because I have nicer dreams ;-) and a nicer outlook on life.

I have been through a lot of health issues, medication temporarily (few months and more) rendered me unable to ejaculate. Its better now thanks for asking.

Thing is, because of one of my conditions, I have a relationship built with porn, I believe that with my health issues it's hard to expect anyone to love me for the long term.

Like I said with logistics is that the problem I see is that I want sex, but I don't want to make a gf pregnant, at least not yet. I guess that is the human dilemma. And porn is the answer. I don't want to creep around behind my girlfriends back and make her feel bad. So its even harder to navigate dating and such because there is too many variables that could happen, and unfortunately inevitable.

is nofap really a battle I can "win?",
can I completely stop fapping and have no consequences?

Is it worth it / feasible for my sanity, to do so?