I had followed nofap hardmood for 90 days and today I masturbated without watching porn or anything. Just was curious if it was pleasurable and I felt I achieved 90 days without porn or masturbation so why not.

Well although it was kinda pleasurable but I didn't feel shame or guilt or post depression or sadness or anything about it and also didn't feel its something proud of doing or bad doing it. Just meh feeling, kinda like peeing after a long time of not being able to pee. The little pleasure of getting relieved.

I have seen a lot of posts they say that masturbation once a month is oky. But I don't think there is a point to do that. Especially when wet dreams can do that job for me.

This is a warning for me that mind is probably trying to trick me to go back to fapping without porn but I won't allow it. And I will keep counting.

Just letting you guys know.