Today is the 68th day in my nofap journey. it is the first time to get this far after 5 years of trying.

here are some thoughts

1- There is nothing to be proud of when you watch porn, i don't think there is anyone who is proud of watching porn and this wasn't clear to me or i didn't want to believe that until i started dating and i felt this is might destroy the whole relationship because in any lady perspective what kind of a man who accepts masturbating to girls who got abused or tricked to do these scenes, and secondly why would she date someone who can't control his urges and runaway to porn for a temporary pleasure rather than facing them like any real man would do. I don't think there is anything honorable here.

2- You will not commit to nofap unless you try believe that porn is extremely detrimental for you. I have tried in the past to do nofap but it didn't work because i never truly saw that porn is harmful and i used to edge or masturbate. only when i realized that porn is controlling my willpower and makes me shameful of myself and is a bomb for any relationship that i stopped for good. I don't count days anymore.

3- Don't ever trust yourself that you can avoid temptation after achieving x days. i think it's very important to remind yourself that changing a habit which was built for many years can't be changed within few months. so no edging or watching anything erotic on Netflix or youtube.

I want to feel proud of myself and confident of my manhood. to be honest with you guys i lost the desire for anything related to sexual activities unless it is meaningful which means being in love with a girl and having sex. you don't to be in your death bed regretting how many years you wasted watching porn or how you fucked your relationship because of porn.

looking forward to finish 90 days.