18 days today and I'm dying. It just feels so stupid, like I'm doing it for no reason, and the craving is so strong and it would feel so good...

But then that sense of need is proof enough I shouldn't give in. That if I can resist this, I've really accomplished something. I've been white-knuckling for almost three weeks - my goal is to get my 30 day chip, but I know it's supposed to be one day at a time. It's just so damn hard when it feels so pointless...

I'm recently single because of my sex addiction, and all I can think of is doing all the things I didn't do because I had a girlfriend. Hookups, strip clubs, all the stuff I feel ashamed of doing afterward but feel so good at the time. And now that I have the freedom and lack of accountability to anyone else, I slap on my own restrictions and can't do anything. Sure, it's for my own good, but it still sucks.

I just need some encouragement, and room to vent. Thanks NoFap.