I never considered myself an addicted individual, I saw porn as guilty pleasure for years, however my life went into a downhill for 4 years now due to hardships which made me fap everyday for years, sometimes it was the only thing that can relieve the pain temporary.

I feel like a broken house which got gradually ruined over the years as my energy was consumed into fapping.

The last few years I had tremendous failures as an entrepreneur and many unprecedented hardships that took a troll on my mental health.

Today I looked into the mirror and saw a skinny body of someone , his bank account balance is 0 for long time now, and still living with his parents in the same house and never had sex in his life . He is behind his ambitious goals by many years.

I felt like a complete failure and I wished I could reset my life, I smashed the walls so hard while crying and glass of the window fall on my legs. Lucky me I wasn't heart physically but my soul was in a great pain.

The only little improvement I feel everyday when I wake up and mark another day on my nofap tracker.

I really hope that someday that nightmare will be over, and i will a physical and sexual confidence and don't see myself as a complete failure in the mirror anymore.