After more than a month doing it "wrong", I decided a few days ago to go hard mode. Or what I think is hard mode 😅 No pixels and not searching for girls. Focusing on learning chinese.

I'm learning to which extent sex was wired in my brain! I think about it everyday and I'm even making naughty jokes to friends and online classmates to search for openings for sexting!!! I manage to avoid most of them and everything is smooth so far. But it's been like 5 days only. I imagine that with time it gets better, but as long as it's like this, this is hard.

I also learnt that when I'm tired I tend to fap. That I'm actually craving for company/connection, only that I also linked masturbation with that craving. Sort of eating when you are thirsty.

I believe that the previous month where I edged and watched pornstagram and tinder but achieved full SR, helped me win confidence and will power and now it's being useful. Was some sort of middle step in which I allowed some pleasure but no porn and no ending the masturbation, and I think it helped me transition, rather than setting the bar too high.

But edging is risky, don't take my middle way lightly. Because if you don't manage to really SR, probably you won't have the extra confidence and mind clarity.

As I always say: experimenting leads to wisdom and to your own truth, so don't be scared of trying things.

Good luck everyone!

PS: I'm in SR from 2 August.