I'm realizing that I'm very addicted to phone notifications. I check the phone very often and I'm so happy when there is something. Often there is nothing. And then I think about faping. But now I don't fap. So I look at the phone again. I feel sort of lonely and wanting to fap and weird to look at my phone aimlessly. But I don't fap and I don't have insta or any other hidden porn. I have Reddit. But I know my fellow fapstronauts are there and I already cheated on them. I don't want to do it again, so they being there is like a shield (thanks guys!).

So no o don't fap, instead I learn about myself. Hopefully the next step is learning the lessons and improving my life. Wish me luck!