About 45 days ago I started my nofap journey. I set that day as my last masturbation and went on firmly. Ten days later I started to have some quite strong cravings and allowed myself to go into tinder, as a means to find a real girl with which having proper sex. I understand it now as a way to trick myself. A girl to release urges it's not healthy interaction, it's a workaround for the adiction.

So it went exactly that way. Instead of improving my life and spend time on healthier hobbies and ways to bring my life to a better point, I spent more time in instagram, tinder, the "dark" Reddit and so on. My obsession was still very strong and to some point I even started edging. A bit at first and more and more until it became quite regular.

The two positive points I stayed strong about were: I stopped watching porn (lets make a difference here between straight away porn and naked girls and similar sort of sexual pixels) and I didn't nutt a single time. I was very very close a couple of times but I held strong even when a girl I sexted with asked me explicitely.

Doesn't seem like a big victory but I think SR helped me keep a sharp enough mind and a stronger and stronger will. Good to keep observing everything instead of turn the brain off while the life goes away.

Two days ago another guy in this group encouraged me to go a bit harder into nofap and I think he is right. It's time to step up and go 0 pixels and get rid of the obsession.

I restarted the counter and now I'm a new man.

For those who feel guilty about relapsing. Hey, take it easy and go step by step. You can do it and already trying is a victory 🙌