Hi everyone. Tomorrow I'll be one month from my lastfap ever. Which is technically not true because I edged several times, even though I never eyaculated (despite a couple of times being close to it). So this is a turned off victory report. Through this month, my obsession has become very clear. I sleep many nights less than I would have because every night I was alone I was searching for girls on tinder or even at some points checking pornstagram. It was clearly addictive behavior. Not eyaculating sounds more like an anecdote than anything else. And it feels like it's a matter of time that I relapse. But I didn't so far, and that counts from something.

I can't say I'm satisfied but I take the positive reading of it. I didn't nut thus I didn't have the brain fog. I was tired many days for lack of sleep, but even that was better than brain fog. I was tired but sharper, not sure if you know what I mean.

About eventual expected benefits I'm not sure this is a proper case, as I feel guilty about my behavior and probably that is what is mining my confidence (which in turn might be the root of getting girl's attention?). I feel more confident and energetic than after coming, though. That's for sure.

So guys, however close you get to come, don't give up to despair. Any point you are it's better than the next step into PMO. Be gentle at yourselves and learn from the struggle. Don't blame yourself from making mistakes. It's probably less of a mistake than going all the way. Love you, guys.