I am barely beginning and there is surely lots to learn in the way. I see so many posts about day 7-8, about relapsing, about taking years to get to 40-60 days... I can't help but to assume that I will myself relapse too. I will also struggle and learn the lessons...

But, still, I want to try my way. I want to set this very strong mentality: July 27 2020 is the day I had my last masturbation ever. I cut that day from my calendar and it's now in front of my eyes over my desk. It's a date I will remember all my life as the end of masturbation. I'm 30, maybe started at 11 (can't remember precisely). And let's say that this stage of my life is over. The times are changing and I want to change too. I want to redefine myself. I am redefining myself. I'm not fighting something I am, hoping it to become something I used to be. I am already this something new. I don't masturbate. I spend my sexual energy in a healthy manner enjoying sharing it with other human beings (read women) or if not possible I turn it into creativity, money, goals, support for others...

And that is how the old me died and the new me is here to be discovered and explored. You all are witnesses of my determination. Let it be indestructible. Ahó.