Hey guys, this is the first time I have ever posted on a forum in my life, some of you may judge me but I hope that people take me seriously.

Before I start, I embarked on this journey of Nofap as part of my bigger plan of self-improvement. With Nofap, I have gained greater confidence, energy and the clarity in how I see the world. I am on a 10-day streak now.

But now, I am facing really strong sexual urges and a hopeless feeling that makes me feel like relapsing.

Here's some context. I am a 23 y/o virgin, I have a girlfriend of 2 years but we are now on LDR, separated by a couple thousand miles. I have never had sex with her because she is a devout Christian and rejects pre-marital sex. She is not a very pleasant person to talk to on some days because she complains all day about her family and other things, and is generally a downer to be around. But when she's not complaining (which is rare nowadays), she's one of the sweetest and most selfless people you'll ever meet.

I have a confession to make. Before joining Nofap, I have been unsatisfied with my relationship because she refuses to have sex with me in totality. I tell her I don't mind and have continued to treat her as usual but deep down, I can't help but feel unsatisfied.

After joining Nofap, this feeling has only escalated. I had urges to talk to other women, and the curiosity and desire to want sex has increased so much that it feels unbearable. I don't feel right about breaking up with my girlfriend because we aren't having sex, it's downright shallow, but I really don't know what to do about my feelings.

The only thing that has staved off this feeling was jerking off to get to that refractory period which calms down my drive to want sex and the desire to, which I fear the most, cheat on my girlfriend. This has gone on for the whole of my relationship. I feel like relapsing is the only option to stop these disgusting feelings.

This is the first time in my life I have ever posted something anonymously before, I don't care if people judge me, but I genuinely hope some people could pitch in their thoughts on my situation.