My car engine exploded. Piston out the block.

I got fired after missing shifts.

My Grandma is in the ICU.

The stress is leading to fighting with my Girlfriend. We verbally fought in the churches lobby.

I'm tired of this sleep schedule since giving up masterbating. How I'm I spoused to function after weeks of restless sleep.

I tried to relapse but all I could manage was to ball. Pretty much past my breaking point.

But at my weakest I pray. I pray hard. God's will, will be done. I can't see his plans but I can trust that it's the best for me. Grandma I love you and peace be with us. GF I'm sorry I'm putting you through this. If you end it, I won't blame you. I'm a mess and holding you back.