Past few weeks I've been feeling kind of exhausted. Sure I'm overworked af BUT I just managed to string together a couple of days of nofap again and I realized THAT'S IT. Of course that's it...

I mean how many god damn times do I have to come to this realization before I never forget it? The rationalization is soo strong. "It's not that big of a deal you just got your life together ourtimeforchange".

Fuck that. It's bullshit. This may not be where you're at or be a mindset that resonates with or helps you as it does me. But I should just fucking kill myself if I'm just gonna lead such a disgrace of a life anyway. There is no fucking relapse I would rather DIE than relapse again.

A shoutout to all you guys you are amazing. Love you all. Don't you forget what difference it does. Don't you let it win.