I've been trying NoFap on hard mode and off for the last 3 years. A few weeks ago I was feeling mega depressed and a little suicidal, and decided that something needed to change, so I tried again.

I managed my longest streak - 15 days. During this time I had NO depressed / suicidal thoughts. I experienced much more energy than usual, I found it easy to get out of bed on a morning. I noticed more interest from girls, a deeper voice, a more centred demeanour. Over the last few years I've given up smoking, started exercising regularly, and given up drugs - but I am CERTAIN that NoFap is the key to everything that I've been searching for.

Then I returned home for Christmas and started to drink. I relapsed the next morning, and multiple times over the last two days. All of the benefits I encountered are gone. I am filled with self-hatred, and a huge feeling of being lost. I feel like the energy that I need to face life has gone. I'll be restarting today, and avoiding alcohol - it's just too dangerous for the time being

Merry Christmas everyone