I am on day 39 im 17 I've seemed to gain control of myself. I treat myself like a Jedi. Not allowed to love and must be mindful of thoughts. Some may disagree about the love part, but I'm 17 I don't need to love anyone except fam and close friends and pets.

My first 28 days were hellish some edging some porn, some stress, confident none the less due to not blowing my load. But still. The last 11 days have been a breeze So here are some things I have implemented 1. Cold showers: I love them, very refreshing and relaxing feels very elit and different 2. Sleeping naked: I know it sounds crazy but there is a certain relief and freedom that comes with it, consider it 3. Music: listening to supportive music has been key in my journey

So I had a friend today ask me how many days I was on I said 39. He looked at me like I had 3 heads or something. I kindly suggested he should start doing it too, he replied with "that's impossible" I trily felt sympathy for my pal. I refrained from pushing my beliefs on him, cause no one wants that. He proceeded to jokingly say he was gunna text me porn so "I had to do it" I was like 😂😂😂 nobody has to do it hahaha I then told him don't though because I don't need that stuff anywhere near my phone. He didn't get it, I tolfmd him I can't see porn, I don't want to I cant. He then uttered the words "it's not that serious" wow this blew me back. I mean it's my life it's not just something I do, it's become part of my essence it's part of who I am as a person. It's me trying to find my real person . Become the man I want to be. I'm also an addict of PMO so my point is really that, no gap isn't all about no PMO we also must find out who we are and gain LIFE along with letting go of sexual fantasies and PMO.

So I don't have any superpowers yet, I'm not impatient I don't really care, but it's not like ladies are all over me really yet lol and that's fine it's not even really about that, but I am getting a bit curious if it happens to everyone or if it's just something more serious addicts get. Cause I mean I was an addict for the last 7 years but I don't think I was crazy. I have been a freakin deviant with burnt out dopamine receptors and suffering from PIED. But I wasnt a social catostrophe. My thing was I was always a little awkward and maybe a little confrontational at times. The confrontational part hasn't even gone away, I'm just way more confident now. When I say something now, I mean it. I stand my ground, I don't have fear. I feel better then everyone. To be honest there I times I find myself maybe even talking some shit on people, I don't want to but I just feel so good about myself it's hard to see any body as an equal. I'm straight edge, In a world with smokers tokens and drinkers and fappers and yeah I'm going to say it, I'm Alpha. I'm insightful full of confidence, still a little weird sometimes lol but I don't know I love my life right now, sure there's been ups and downs. But the downs are the healing for you people experiencing them while reading this. I'm a little ON TOP OF THE WORLD! Come follow me people!